this is one of them:
"For the Best" -Straylight Run
And it takes more time than I've ever had,
Drains the life from me, makes me want to forget.
As young as I was, I felt older back then,
More disciplined, stronger and certain.
But I was scared to death of eternity,
I was saved by grace but destroyed by naivety.
And I lied to myself and said it was for the best.
And now faith is replaced with a logic so cold,
I've disregarded what I was now that I'm older.
And I know much more than I did back then,
But the more I learn the more I can't understand.
And I've become content with this life that I lead
Where I drink too much and don't believe in much of anything
And I lie to myself, and say it's for the best
We're moving forward but holding ourselves back
and we're waiting on something that'll never come
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Hey. You don't know me but while I was perusing the wall of the "I don't care how comfortable crocs are, you look like a dumbass" facebook page, I clicked your name from the 1million+ fans. I thought you were an old friend of mine and clicked the blog to discover that you are not in fact that friend.
ReplyDeleteHowever, interestingly enough, we are/were going through very similar shit, and I see a great deal of myself/thoughts in you. At least the me a year or two ago. I was very depressed and a substantial portion of that was due to circumstances out of my control.
All I can tell you as a fairly objective observer is that I genuinely sympathize with you and your situation, your thoughts, and pessimistic outlook on things at the moment. I wish you and your mom the best and urge you to do whatever you can to try to look at things more positively and enjoy every second with your mom and everyone you interact with for that matter.
I've surrounded myself with the people I love, with the things I love to do, and changed my outlook on life. I've by no means got life figured out, but I can safely say that I am immensely happier than I was a few years ago. Life can be very very difficult and unfair, but all you can do is live for the moments when it seems beautiful.
Hang in there,
J